sometimes i just feel like a background character in my own life. i just don’t think i affect my friends’ lives in any way and i don’t think they would be upset if they lost me - they never remember or care to know anything about me, they never try to go the extra mile, even though i feel like i’m trying my best to be close to them.
okay i just have to add that this sounds like i’m really ungrateful, but i REALLY appreciate the few best friends i have; it’s just that most of the time i get really insecure about my relationships with them and that’s why i get so negative. anxiety makes me doubt myself so much that it’s irrational and senseless; but i’m getting better about it.
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